Penny's Lane

I have always thought that Spencer Chamberlain was hot. i mean who wouldnt think that. he's a musician, sensitive, God-fearing, a lil unique, about my age, long haired, tattooed, innocent looking.. any girl would've fallen for that kinda guy.

but yeah, not everyone is perfect. the dude has his own battles for drug and alcohol abuse. heck, i remembered him on coke. and ive heard of the girlfriend oh, fiance. oh, are they married? heck, i dont know. im not updated with the music scene these days.

and who wouldve known gillespie has a side project called "the almost" man, once again i wasnt notified. and the once chuby dude trimmed down and got hotter. and yeah, apparently that guy got married last november if im right. ah, life. why are all the good guys taken?

well, not all, i still got one around but.. i dont know, i think my capacity to like someone has plunged down a lil. i mean, i cant hold that long, like, if i went away somewhere after a good time with someone, i missed them for a couple of days but then i adopt to the situation and i dont think about them anymore. is there something wrong with me?

am i taking someone again for granted?
aaah.. why cant i for one second think that i could be really inlove and good at relationships?

obviously i dont feel really good today.
anyways, i'll be home this sat. i dont know if im excited for that.

peace and love.
penn

San Francisco, CA Bimbo's 365 Club

OH ME GEE! I am totally going.

Boy just called me to say he booked the hotel room, and bought the tickets.
man, being loved is awesome.

xo.
-P-ROCK


P.S

Maybe this is just odd to me, but I jsut got home from work, from a wicked show, and a wicked night..

and there are BIRDS chirping outside!

and with my glow in the dark fish, this is all just too surreal.

San Francisco, CA Bimbo's 365 Club

OH ME GEE! I am totally going.

Boy just called me to say he booked the hotel room, and bought the tickets.
man, being loved is awesome.

xo.
-P-ROCK



Maybe this is just odd to me, but I jsut got home from work, from a wicked show, and a wicked night..

and there are BIRDS chirping outside!

and with my glow in the dark fish, this is all just too surreal.

I say that I watch much music for research purposes only. So I know what song obnoxious idiot customers are singing to me.

But, its really because I like seeing hoochie mamas shake their butts around.

Duders, whats up with all the fucking male drivers with too much testosterone. You suck. I like the guys that drive their little cars and don't try to race me off the line, cut me off, show me their dicks or asses for that matter. GO AND GET LAID OR SOMETHING.

***girl shiznat*** I was totally violated today. ouchies!!

I think I might be having nightmares tonight!

I went and saw this "korean thriller" tonight called OLDBOY. I went with boy so he could squeeze my hand when I shut my eyes. I don't even think it was all that scarey or bad. But I'm just a little girl and that shit freaks me out like no other.
ew!

wish me sweet dreams! I need my teddy.


I've also only been listening to music from the 60's. Nothing else matters.
And NO that is NOT a metallica quote.


However, although only having $3.74c in the bank (how pathetic) I managed to buy some WICKED cowboy boots from MACY'S. I forgot how much I loved that place. This pseudo "gay boy" (as in a 16 year old with make up and painted nails) was literally STALKING Steve. So funny! He loved his pink shit and his Vans Shoes. I tried to help him out, but just came across as rude when I smelt all the liqour on his breath. Who the hell gets drunk and hangs out at Macy's at 6pm?! WTF GUYS WTF. I used to at least stick to an alley way, or a river.
giggle!


off to bed if I dare.

Its 12:41 and I don't know where my mummy is! eek.

so, I'm really not a very bitchy person... I don't get too wound up to easily.
but tonight, I swear to god, I almost cried at work.

You know what sucks about old people?
well, not old... but 45-55 people?

I'l tell you.
they're all assholes.

seriously, especailly ones that hang out at Broken City to see a alt soft rock concert.

1, they're all bitchy about their somewhat failed attempts at life (I assume.. I mean, why else would you be getting trashed off the "cheap beer" then yell at someone like ME who has been nothing but happy, and cheerful all night?
2, they're mad that their friends are all drunken assholes all trying to cop a feel onto the server (me) and surrounding young girls.
3, they have no balance. inner ear is shot.
4, they're sad because they realized they lost all sense of well being back in the 60's.

Okay, I've gotta go to bed before I cry again or something. or start jumping around with the sheer knowledge that this week is done !! yay.

eww !

Today was fun.
Worked until 3 am last night at the bar, and actually had quite a fun evening!
This morning I started at lisa's10:30am to help her with her new apt and started cleaning cleaning cleaning, being the well domesticated woman that I am. All on top of bartending and serving!
but holy heck am I a good little worker bee when I apply my mind to it. I should learn how to utilize this ability to concentrate somehow.
Next year.


THEN! Thee boy had reservations at Slim's that couldn't go to waste... so he took me! of all people. I ran on home, dolled myself up in less than 20 minutes.
And I think I scrub up okay when I need too. By the way.
Expensive shoes, expensive dress, cheap accessories, hot new plugs and I am on my way...
he looked lovely in a Tie with no jacket.

Him and I had a lovely meal with lovely conversation. Maybe inappropriate for fine dining. But I guess we don't pretend to be yuppies.
We ended up getting way too much free food and booze and I feel I little bloated right now. But over all I think it was worth it. I quite enjoyed spending a 3 hour long dinner with him. I think I should enjoy this good friendship we've developed. Especially now in my lonely time.

THEN we went to work all dressed up to the nines.
Came home.

BUT to top off a good night, my silly little brother is throwing a fucking PARTY. ON A SUNDAY NIGHT!
Gah, there is nothing I hate more than drunk 18 year olds, and their silly clingy gf's.

What am I doing?

I went out for a belated birthday dinner with my dad the other day.
I can feel the repercussions mounting.

PLEASE: May someone save me a BEST OF 2006 FFWD? and check the I SAW YOUS for my name.
thanks.


I went to an outdoor pool yesterday all by myself... so lovely.
I snuck in a "cooler" that wasn't a "cooler" at all. I wanted something light and fruity, but alcoholic! what better? However, it was a VODKA ICE and it tasted like shit. It was a malt flavoured Vodka drink. Beer Vodka?! Can you think of anything worse? The Daniel and I watched American Psycho, Drank Beer (that you can buy from the CORNER STORE?! dude, WTF) and made Pizza. that is totally MY KINDA NIGHT


Is going to lava lounge alone tonight totally LAME?

xo